Melodious

some drams were meant to be forgotten and other, shattered with your hopes

(Source: one-h-u-n-d-r-e-d-percent)

never be good enough?

maybe you’ll put yourself in my shoes shoes and have your heart break a little every time you say you can’t go somewhere and you see see the dissappointment in their eyes or hear it in there voice and how much it hurts you to not be there

it will make you mad

while i sit here trying to be strong trying to fight you feel the sting on your emotions as the person you are trying to please and make happy hits you where it hurts most and you know nothing else to say

i tried to be understanding i always put you above all else as well

i’ve spent more time with you than my own friends as well, i cancel days with my family so i can be with you, i spend my nights talking y=to you no matter how i early i have to wake up the next day and i’ve found ways that if i could not see you one day to make sure i could another. And you say i’ve never seen you, how could i when i ask to go and you tell me no? i ask the time and you don’t tell me, i ask the place and get no response. I find out myself where and when yet you urge me not to go. Why not be straight forward and invite me? That would be nice like all the time i invite you to my concerts it would be nice to feel welcome at your performances not pushed away from them.

And while your waiting, i’m busy trying, trying to find a way to go faster trying to find a way to get home to you thinking of any possible way and being angered by everything which might prolong what i have to do

How am i supposed to be strong for the both of us you you don’t let me know when your upset when you point out my flaws that i spent the whole day fighting just to get to you

how strongly can you say i love you, yet not understand how hard i try to be with you.

and yes i say that cause i obviously don’t have the time for you that you require of me i obviously don’t try enough, i obviously can’t find a way to make you happy so don’t spend time waiting for me to be “free” i’m in shackles and in shackles i’ll remain you just worry about yourself this once i wish we could stay together and live life as we thought but it hurts me more knowing it hurts you this much everytime i hear your voive when i say i cant or see you look down when i say i don’t know.

“see the world through my eyes” hows this i’ll give you a small view of the conflicts i face to be with you,

i was supposed to go to guadalajara to see my grandpa for a month to be with him, yet i decided to only go for a few days cause i might have work, reality i couldn’t spend that much away from you even for my own family

my friends invite me places after school to celebrate our last year i say i have to help my mom when i’m really walking around with you

everyday and every second i find all the time i can to be with you and if i cant like i knew saturday i had to help at home i did what i could to spend friday with you, i lie to my own mother just to be able to spend time with you 

i’ve given up so many things to be with you so many opportunities but here the thing, i don’t regret a single thing i’ve left

i dont regret all the times i’ve lied or not lied to be with you i don’t regret times i’ve lost cause it meant time with you, i regret none of this because it meant i could be with you

now put yourself in my shoes and imagine the sting when the person you love tells you your not trying or you never even have the time 

i put myself in your shoes daily i know it must suck waiting and waiting constantly dissapointed always left alone have you tried putting yourself in my shoes and knowing you are the reason for the person you loves pain her loneliness when no matter what you try and how hardf you try it ends in her dissapointment. you try beeing the cause of all this and having it all thrown in your face and be strong? at that point you want them to be with some one they have time with. You told me yourself relationships wont last if one person doesn’t have time for the other so if i don’t have the time for you i’m sorry if i do i’m not going anywhere, but i am tired of being the person to always let you down, so find someone who can be there all the time